Two Words

Two words I did not want to hear tonight I heard - "Take Care."

I am sure he means well when he says that, unfortunately it doesnt change the fact that I did not want to hear them. The last time I heard them was when we had a huge blow up and I felt it was the end.

I don't know if what we have is even going to go anywhere, all I know is those two words hurt very much.

All I know is I care for him very deeply and miss him very much.

At this point, I don't even know if there is anything I can say or do to turn this around. Maybe he doesnt want to turn it around, I don't know.

I want to know what he is thinking and feeling, I think. Yeah I do what to know what he is thinking and feeling. I know what I am thinking and feeling however I scared as hell to tell him.

My head hurts from crying, my heart hurts because I miss everything about him, I am so tired from not sleeping.

I am so lost right now...................I feel like I can't breathe.