Feelings?

How do I get rid of the feelings that I have right now?
As I said before, I feel like I can't breathe.
The past few hours I have felt like I am having an anexity attack, my heart hurts, my chest tightens up on me when I think about not having him in my life.

Yeah I admit I have made some mistakes, everyone makes mistakes, but this time, I truly feel I didn't do anything wrong to be treated this way.

I truly feel like my life is falling apart even more and no one cares.

I truly feel the one person that has been here for me and the one person that I have been able to lean on this past year, doesn't want me to lean on him anymore, doesn't want me to burden him anymore with the problems in my life. I always felt I could lean on him, all I feel right now is he is pushing me away, doesn't want me to be a part of him anymore, doesn't want to have a relationship with me anymore, doesn't want to hold me, touch me, kiss me or makelove to me anymore.
Were his feelings true? I always believed they were, I still believe they are. I especially felt his feelings were true for me when he told me that he loves me a few weeks ago.

Why is it when you find happiness and make do your best to make someone else happy it never seems enough? I thought I was making him happy but maybe I was wrong. Is he afraid to be completely happy with me? Is he afraid that he knows that he can be happy with me and is doing everything and saying anything to not be happy with me? I don't know - all I know is he makes me happy, he makes me feel complete.

Like I said before in one of my blogs, I truly hope that he knows or will figure out that what I feel for him is so real.

I truly hope he realizes.