Ever feel so overwhelmed, no matter what you say, what you think or what you do, you still feel like you are spinning out of control? Unfortunately, that is what I have been feeling the past year. My life has been a whirl wind the past six years, up until two years ago. Two years ago, I met someone that stole my heart, knocked down my walls and allow myself to be cared for and to be loved. A year ago, my life changed even more, I lost my job that I absolutely loved. It took me eight months to find another one, finally found a job and now I will be out of work again.
I have a wonderful daughter, great friends and a man I am so in love with, that I don't think I will ever get the chance to be with him the way that I want. Does he know how I feel, yes he does.
Right now I am scared for myself and my daughter. If I do not get a job with the next few weeks, I will have to find a place for my dog, my stuff and a place for my daughter and I to live.
I have never felt so overwhelmed in my life. I want to shut myself in a room and cry. I am scared to death, all I want to do is cry.
The man in my life has reached out to me, but it seems all I do is push him away. Why?? No Clue.
